No MRI Results and Eggs

There were no MRI results as the radiologist hadn't reviewed the scan yet. Kalun and I waited for 1.5 hours(!) before being seen by my doctor who said a lot but told us very little. They could have called to reschedule. My doctor is going to call me in the next few days when he has consulted with the oncologist.

I am still having a lymph node surgery on Friday. This is to see if the cancer has spread to my nodes. I don't really know what they do. The doctor explained it but I still don't understand. Apparently they make up the body's defense mechanism. All I know is that it needs to be done to check if the cancer has spread. I didn't realise people had nodes. I feel like a Borg.

I am also undergoing an egg collection operation(!) on Thursday. This is because the chemotherapy will have a high chance of damaging my ovaries, it has been offered to me to freeze my eggs. When this was offered to me, I was and am slightly freaked out by the possibility that due to the cancer treatment I may not be able to have children. I would like to have some one day, but as I am not with a partner yet, it makes the reality somewhat distant but I would still like the option. It's not definite that I would be made infertile by the chemotherapy, which is a relief and this is a back up plan just in case. My fertility may recover after treatment. My age also means that there is a high possibility that my fertility may come back. However the doctors and nurses do say the words 'infertile,' 'destroyed,' and 'damaged eggs' which sting every time I hear them.

The wonderful thing is that the fertility treatment is all on the NHS! I am so glad I live in this country. So, I have been taking fertility drugs for 1.5 weeks now and I am nearly ready for 'harvesting.' I have 5 or 6 eggs that they will go in and take on Thursday. I feel it too. I feel bloated.